Star Crossed lovers... Yet Happily Ever After

The Letters

Friday, June 09, 2006

My Beautiful Wifey~

J, you, at this very moment, are at a dinner with all of your friends in Chicago that want to say bye to you before you leave for Minnesota tomorrow. I know this move is going to be much harder on you than my move is going to be on me. I am going to try to support you the best I can until I can get there on Wednesday and hold you in my arms. You feel that you are returning home a failure, but I look at it as you having the strength to admit when you need help and are simply returning home to regroup before you go back out into the world. In a few days, I will be by your side, and whatever comes our way we will be facing it together. I know we will make it through anything b/c we will be together. In four days we will be basically married and I am ready to begin our life together and get settled into whatever our routine will become. I can't wait! I know that there are a few things weighing on your mind but just remember that you no longer face problems alone, we are in everything together now and when the weight of the world is too much for your shoulders to bare I will be there to lighten the load. I love you babygirl, you have all of me. See you soon~

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Angel Face....

Wow... its been one hell of a day... cant believe it is so close to real... so soon... I dont know where i would be with out you... you have been my strength... I cant wait to hold you in my arms... to kiss you everynight... i know that there are people that will think we are crazzy... everything is such a mess and here we are jumping head first... but i now in my heart of hearts that this is what is right... It feels so good to know when i am actually gonna get to see you... to know that i am not going to have to say good bye... I love everything we have planned for the future... but most of all... I love you...

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Friday, June 02, 2006

Beautiful J~

There is so much that has happened since I last posted in here. So little has gone right and so much has gone wrong in such a short amount of time. I know that majority, if not all, of it is my fault and I take full blame. I am truly sorry for what I have put you through these last few weeks. I know that you gave me your blind trust and I fucked that up. Now we are at the point where the future is uncertain. Will we make it through this or not? The answers are unclear at this point. Yes, I am coming home in a few weeks, perhaps sooner, and hopefully once we are face to face we can work through this and you can see how much I truly am sorry and how much I truly do adore you. No one has ever loved me like you before, so completely, and I was a fool and fucked that up. I don't know why I do the things I do, but if you figure it out let me know please. I'd really like to stop doing them and I don't want to hurt you anymore. I adore you J, before and still and always. Hopefully we can work through this when I get home, but if not then we can't say we didn't try. I love you J, to the moon and back. Always yours~

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Sunday, May 21, 2006

bonito nino.

This week has been a trying time for us and while i know there are still bumps and curves ahead of us. I know that the fact that we have some this far says something for us. while at times the urge to run like hell from you was strong. I cant imagine anyone else in my world in your place.

You have now seen me at my best and my worst. and your still by my side. Thank you.

everyday that passes will make us stronger. I love you.

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Monday, May 08, 2006

Handsome Angel....

Today is one of those days that i dont always know what to say... Where i would give anything to be with you... to be close to you... to make everything right. I dont always act like the loving girlfriend that i am...

Lately i see a lot of red.

and i think its cause of my own failings as your girlfriend. I hate the days that i cant give you all the attention you need. I hate not being able to talk to you all day everyday... and even more i hate hearing you sound so hurt...

I know i have been picking a lot of stupid fights lately... and there isnt really any good justification for it... cause mostly its cause i am so insecure... So scared that i will lose you before i ever get to hold you. So scared that there are a million girls with lives not nearly as crazy as mine... and that maybe you will be able to look at one of them the way you look at me.

maybe in some ways i subconsciously make you the bad guy so i dont have to admit that i neglect you. or maybe i push so hard to recieve validation that you are gonna stay. But either way.... Its not what you deserve. and from now... this very second... I am going to try so hard to give you the heaven you deserve... Tell you everyday how much you amaze me and how thankful i am that you love me....

I love you Angel...

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Beautiful~

It is my turn to post for you. This weekend was crazy for you with your move and all that's going on, and it's true that I did feel neglected. I'm a needy boi that requires a lot of attention and I know you do your best to give me as much as you can. I was just having a bad couple of days and you didn't have the time that I wanted you to. And I know I was pretty much an ass about it and I just want to apologize for it babygirl. You know I love you more than anything. And the love that you give to me is incredible. I don't think I've ever had anyone love me the way you do, and you know my track record. You just have so much love for me that sometimes it amazes me that any one person can love another that much. And it would be almost overwhelming if it wasn't exactly what I was looking for. The things you say to me, the little things you do for me, the way you make sure I feel like the most important person in the world when we talk-I can't begin to describe the way it makes me feel. I feel like the luckiest boi in the world to have someone that loves me so much that I can feel it all the way over here, even though we are so many miles apart for right now. I know you feel like you don't do anything right but nothing could be farther from the truth babygirl. You make me the happiest boi, and you ARE a wonderful femme that knows how to take care of her boi. Thank you for all that you do. It is I that will try harder to make sure you know how much I love you and appreciate you and I want you to feel like you are the luckiest girl in the world. And don't worry about the location/moving thing. Everything will work out in the end, even if I have to commute back and forth. No worries baby. I love you like a fat kid loves cake...

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Mine-

It has been forever since I have written here... I know I tell you everyday how much I adore you, but perhaps i am overdue in telling you how much you mean to me. These last few days have been so hectic and crazy and you have been nothing but a tower of strength and love. and it means so much, i cant even find the words to tell you how much. It simply brings tears to my eyes and a smile to my face.

I am often a nuerotic highstrung person and you have seen this at its worst... Mixed with PMS and regardless love and adore me. Wow K. what else can i say but WOW.

You Poem made me cry when you read it to me, and again this morning. You are my home. You are my love. Thank You baby for being wonderful and beautiful and so amazing... All the sweet words and small things you do mean more than you will ever ever comprehend....

All My Love... ; 0 Sighs of adoration